Inspiration of the day;

I wish i looked this amazing in a bikini.

This WILL be me next summer.

I promise!

Glorious Glorious day!

I feel happy today, I ate a sandwich for breakfast. It was nice and healthy but i couldn't even finish it. haha. that made me happy. I always finish my food. Hope todays a good one! :) Happy Birthday Mum!

Oh geez.

I just came back from my aunty's house now to get ready for work. She lives next door.. I had lunch there. I ate exceptionally well for the first meal of the day and didn't eat any of the desserts there, it was hard seeing that desserts are my favourite. But this means no more food for the rest of the day. I also drank two cups of green tea while i was there. 3 cups of green tea all together today. Now off to shower and get ready for a long shift at work. great.

Inspiration of the day;

Topless and sexy.

so far so good.

Okay, well of course im doing good so far. I just woke up an hour and a half ago, cleaned my room and now in the middle of drinking my big mug of green tea. Lucky i love green tea, i could really live on this stuff mmmmmmm!  I have work at 5. I work at McDonald's. ugh! Surrounded by fatty deep fried foods, kill me now. I will be strong though! Wish me luck!

Inspiration of the day;
I love how she can wear an extremely tight dress without having any bulges.

New at this.

Okay, so I'm new at this whole blog shit. Tried playing around with it a tad but still looks like my ass hole. Oh well, I'll eventually get better at this i guess, That's if i still like blogging after a day or two.
Anyways...

So here's my story..
I've been having this awful eating habits for so long now, basically, i hate hate hate my body! I constantly starve myself then binge then starve myself then binge then starve myself and so  on. It was until the Christmas holidays when i discovered these amazing herbal weight loss tablets where i could lose like 0.5 of a gram every day. I was cheering! Although, on top of taking these pills I wouldn't eat, drink nothing but water and exercise my ass off. I loved it! My mum hated it. And as like many other's, just having the feeling of people envying your body and complimenting it is like the most awesome feeling ever! I had lost around 7 kilos. Doesn't sound like much but was defiantly enough to make me happy. I began to get sick. Every time i would go to the toilet and do the number two, i would bleed. I wasn't getting enough nutrients put through my body. I was scared. That's when i began to eat a bit of bread. then a lot of bread then too much bread. I never realised how much i loved bread until then. I also began to drink soft drinks again. Here i am now with all the weight put on, too scared to weigh myself, wanting to get back to where i was earlier this year.

Hopefully a blog will help me set my mind straight.

My starting weight is 62kg (136 pounds)
My goal weight is 55kg (121 pounds)
My ultimate goal weight is 50kg (110 pounds)